Friday, January 3, 2020
We have a family game that I have only played twice. It is a game that doesn’t make sense. Each player is required by chance to do some strange things that are seemingly disconnected from the ultimate goal of winning. I can’t even tell you if there is a way to declare a winner or not. I’m sure there is, but the nonsensical nature of the game detracts from winning. That’s really the point of the game, but it is very hard for me to adjust to that. I am outcome driven, and the process to the outcome must make sense.
How many times have you heard the statement, “That makes no sense?” I’ve said that at times. I’ve had that said to me many more times. I have a very abstract way of thinking. It is especially true when it comes to listening to God. I’ve said it to Him way too much.
God is really working on me in this area. He is filling my mind with tough questions.
- What is it about ‘My grace is sufficient for today’ that you don’t understand?
- What kind of faith do you have if you need to know everything before acting on what I said?
- Why do you think it has to make sense to you?
- Do you really think you can be that much like me?
- Do you really trust me?
That last question is the toughest for me. I know how untrustworthy my heart is, and I transfer that distrust to my heavenly Father. I know how manipulative I can be based on my motivation to serve self. I transfer those qualities onto others and believe they are doing that to me. I know how much pride I take in how many answers I have and how much I can get done. I dare to stand in the presence of Almighty God and demand to know.
I am going to have a tough day today. These thoughts are going to pound on me until I learn to trust the truth of Isaiah 55:8-9.
Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
Unless I crucify my pride, I will consider my ways to be higher than His ways, and my thoughts to be higher than His thoughts. I will consider myself first and Him last unless I surrender my need to know. I will fall flat into failure when I choose to live according to what makes sense to me. I could fly into fullness of life by following the Father even when it makes no sense.
This is my goal – to use the statement “That makes no sense” as the starting gun to a race of faith, rather than a hurdle over which I stumble. When God speaks, and it makes no sense, then I will know I am exactly where God can use me the most.
To help me trust God more, I’ve written two acrostics for the word trust. Maybe they will help you too.